The first year of the 30s

 

I've got a lot to say to you but first, you're getting older again this year!

When was the last time we're doing this? We're still being consistent doing this every year. So congratulations! Although when I look back to the previous post and the previous year, nothing has changed much.

However, it is worth noting that 2024 there has been so much blessings. And it is also imperative for you to learn and practice more self-control. You got a good news this year by acquiring a PhD offer which later you didn't accept because of funding. Then you got a bad news on the night of your birthday, your scholarship application didn't get through. This means you need to work harder if you still want to pursue that PhD next year. I believe you can do so. You already know what you were born for. You were born to do what you love: writing and doing research. So keep doing that.

I know that you have been through a wave of uncertainty therefore you seek more pleasure and almost got trapped in it. So, if you listen to me right now, you need to sort out your focus. Once again, if you really want to pursue that PhD, you need to be serious. You need to sort your life and habits. You had let go your good habits recently and it's doing you no good. What happened to be a better person? For these 8 months, you have been going backwards back to your unhealthy self.

You need to be more discipline. You need to keep that passion burning. You need to fix yourself and stop distracting yourself with pleasure. Be mindful, be mindful, be mindful. Be mindful of what you are eating. Be mindful to the people that surrounds you. Be mindful in using your time and resources. You will never know how life will turn out. Do not lose hope. I know you're almost losing your hope that's why you run away instead of facing it. It is time for you to face it and be brave. Fix it. Resolve it.

I really wish that you can be wiser in your 31st year, in every aspects of your life. Again, to be more mindful and present. Your time living in this world is getting closer to the end. So why don't you grow to become better person as you aspire to be? Keep doing things that you love but remember to put limit. You need to sort your priorities right.

I am proud that you have grown to be someone who knows boundaries very well and being strong. But don't let those distraction change you to someone you don't want to be. You have to know when to stop. You have to pull yourself together and get up from your slump. You know that you can do things if you put your mind into it. So, let's go. Let's do this together. Life is too short to be wasted.

As a form in loving yourself, please take care of yourself. Please be healthy, happy, but never made yourself suffer without you realising it.

love,

yourself.